THE GIRL BEHIND THE SMILES

Loud people have great insecurities. They hide behind the jester mask and the clown costume, as each tear and pain is effectively dabbed unnoticed by expertly-moving fingers. Defeat and depression are their greatest adversaries, but are quickly shrugged off for some other "more appropriate time and place for drama," thanks to their gift of gab and humor. There is only one motto. The show must go on.

As part of human nature, we tend to build our defense around ourselves so as not to let other people penetrate our walls. We simply can't let them see beyond our cover. Our weaknesses and most revered emotions remain walled and bottled up within that protective barrier, locked away from the judging and uncomfortable stares of the world...

I am a loud-type, agressive and most of all, a self-proclaimed realist, yet, a pretender. I am a walking irony of all sorts and breathing contradiction of all types; true as most are to others, yet hypocryte as I AM to myself. And so now, before i even have the split-second to get tempted to wear my mask again, allow me to welcome you to my stage.

Don't get me wrong. I am not a hyporcite to others - just to myself.

My world is a stage, and no one acts but me.

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"Avoid loud and aggressive people, they are vexacious to the spirit..." -line from Desiderata

Who says the Desiderata is omniscient?

Only God is. And my GOD shall judge me for all my deeds and words - not some pledge or poem. And especially not you.